Not much to share on Thursday buddy - Mary's, visit at Great Gramma's, home, mommy at book club, you asleep.
On Friday, we have more to discuss :) Omg - you are such a twerp kid. This morning you were all fussy and it was a morning where I felt guilty being a mom that sends her kid to daycare. See, if you were a stay at home kid, I thought you would have taken a nappy and been happy again. But, I quickly learned that you weren't fussy. You were just in a big hurry to go to Mary's. Each time your dad would come in the room, you would look up excited and then get fussy when he left again. As soon as I said "Are you ready to go bye-bye?", you were all smiles!! You just didn't want to hang out with your mommy anymore. Dad said you weren't fussy at all and you were near giddy when you walked up the stairs to Mary's. Twerp. Traitor.
We went to the Omaha Nighthawks game tonight. It was the first one ever and it was at Rosenblatt. You went with daddy early then I met you later. You also saw your first concert - Nelly. You slept through most of it :) You were a good boy all night but you were a tired puppy. We got lots of photos.
Your favorite food - french fry. You are like "Look at me, I am a cool kid."
You like to suck them like spaghetti.
Playing with Morgan and Debbie at the game.
"Gaga Baba" Oops, I mean "Go Nighthawks"
Look at Silly Debbie playing with you.
Silly Elijah!
I am going to go deep on you for a minute. I had a big realization today and I think it is important to share it with you. A few years ago, I went to therapy to do some work on myself to get me to a place where I was happier. I don't know if I achieved that goal but I did learn a lot about myself. One thing I learned is that I didn't think too highly of myself. This was pretty shocking for me to learn because I always felt like I had a very healthy ego - bordering on plain being conceited. She had me do an exercise where I had to tell myself something nice about myself everyday. It was amazing to me because each time I said something nice to myself, a little voice immediately followed with a negative thought. For example, I would say "You have a beautiful smile." That little voice would say "yeah, when it isn't buried in fat from being overweight." Each thing I said was constantly negated and I was shocked. So, this morning, I was driving and listening to one of my favorite songs, "I am" by Train. The thought popped in my head "I am ... A good mom." You know what buddy? There was no negtive voice that contradicted it. From the core fiber of my being, I know and believe that I am a good mom to you. I am sure that every person who knows me and you probably has an opinion on what kind of mom I am. But, I really don't care - I know that I am a great mom to you and that is all that matters. I am so grateful that you bring this out in me and I am also so grateful that if there is only one thing that I can compliment myself on, it is being a good mom to you!!
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