I went back and was reading some of your old posts and I really enjoyed it. I had already forgotten a lot of that stuff and it had only been 3 months! What a treasure for me to have when you are lipping off as a teenager and I can remember the good old days when you were so sweet and innocent. But, it made me realize that I have been changing the focus of your blog and posting you quickies telling you your activities but not really talking to you a whole lot. That made me sad. Yes, I want you to remember who you were hanging out with but I also want to talk to you.
On Thursday, I got a phone call from your dad that you hurt his feelings. Apparently, when he dropped you off at daycare, you just gave him the evil eye stare. Even Mary said that she had never seen you act that way. I, of course, rubbed it in to your dad that it was because he has been deserting you for exercise class and you don't feel like he loves you anymore. haha. After work, I had book club so I didn't see you a whole lot. Your daddy took you over Gramma Ruth's to visit all of your family there. She said you are getting HEAVY :) I came home and rushed up to take your photo for the day - another lame-o photo from your lazy mom!
Today, you were such a happy baby this morning. You were smiling and cooing and making new noises I hadn't heard before. When I picked you up from daycare and took you to Great Gramma's, you were happy too. But, when I picked you up, you tipped the scales to fussy pants. You were over tired then hungry then tired so you were just a plain fussy pants. We did a video chat with Auntie Val and Brandon but you weren't too happy to see them because you were so tired. Poor Brandon was so excited to see you but you just gave him your bug-eyed face!
So, let's see what I want to talk to you about today. I will tell you about the deal that I made with your dad. I told him that we have 5 years to get our finances in order so I can reduce my hours at work. Not a drastic reduction - just an hour or so a day so that I can take you to school and pick you up from school. I envision that time after school to be our time together. I have a "Leave it to Beaver" vision in my head - you come home and tell me all about school, we do your homework together, we get dinner ready. In reality, you will probably not want anything to do with me. :) But, that is my plan for our life.
Oh, I have another plan that I would like to share with you. This one is a bit more serious. I hate to make decisions about our family without your input but you are too little to provide any input on this one. When I look at you, I just can't imagine life without you. I already miss your newborn stage. I realized how badly I would like a 2nd little kiddo in the house. So, I think we may try to make you a baby sister (I know it will be a girl. Just like I knew you were a girl. haha) over the summer. I know it seems crazy since we just had you. But, I have to confess that I don't want to have kiddos much older than I am now. I would like a 2nd baby, I would like you to be close in age and I would like to be young. So, that doesn't leave us much time. I worry how that will affect you - you won't be the center of attention, you won't have had much time with your mom and dad all to yourself, etc. However, there are plenty of well adjusted kiddos out there that have siblings when they are over a year old so I think you will recover. When your dad and I got married, I really thought we would have 3-4 kiddos all in a row and I would be done having kiddos at 30. Well, that didn't really work out for us, did it? But, God brought you here with us and we can only pray that God will bring us a baby sister for you!
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